I NEED YOU AND YOUR NOT HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Is it possible to hate and love someone so much that you miss them for they did. I miss everyone to the point where my heart hurts and i can't breathe. They were always there for me when my mom never was but my mama was there night and day. My baby was there 24 7 and now they can't in my heart yes. But where i need them no. I must wait for the good things to come but i never have been the waiting type but now is a good time to start i guess. I hurt where i am not ready for. To put what i have gone through in to words is more then any one would have thought. I miss them more then i miss my mom cause she has never been there for me like my sis my mama and my baby with many more. i am sad and some thing else i need to be held but he not here till then i will wait.