I hate you but I can't stop loving you!!!!!!!!!

I am moving faster then I anticipated. I can't have anyone slow me down but it just don't work. The sky is white but the world is black. where do i go next. I hate you, you messed up my life and made me feel week but then again I land on my feet when I fall. I hate you but I can't stop loving you. Your everything to me and i don't know what to say but good luck in making your life better for mine has just begun.